A rebel is throbbing within me. My mind speaks of something my heart could not go along well. I am in vain. Occurrences are molding me into something I do not want to be. My life is at stake. Will grow depends on occurrences and mundane of others. I seemed no direction. I am in a meddled path; wish I should not walk through. I am in a battle suppressing my freedom and happiness! I am still the prisoner of the past that is mandating my life now. I could not go on. I am trapped in a world I do not want to be near my vision anymore. I been there before but wish that I haven’t been there and will never been there for the rest of my life. I should have done better. I have my own wings but something is forcibly pulling it down so it’ll not fly. It’s uncontrollable. I am not a robot. I have my own mind, heart and soul wanting to be free and move beyond anyone’s control. A mind that thinks of the future and where life should be better headed. A heart that seeks happiness and peace. A soul wanting to see the lights after being lost and drowned by some destructible factors. If all of this will be in control by one hand, then my life is slowly turning off. It will not be mine anymore!
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Love is just here to stay..
Do I need him?
The pain gets worse every time I see his face
Yet the look in his eyes tells me it will be ok
Another day, just one more tear will fall
Just as long as I know we will never fall
My heart aches with sadness,
I wish I could get pass this.
The darkness isn’t fading
I will never find a love like you
Where ill do anything like i did for you!!
I think of my future,
And his smile right next to mine
I can’t get the memories that me and you both had
I CAN’T
I WONT, let this hurt me now
I NEED to break out!
Believe me now and you will see,
That LOVE is real and not just another
FAIRY TAIL…
Why did you stop loving me??
Why don’t you need me now??
I know you will see that we're meant to be,
When you walk past me
You can see the way I feel
With out my words to spare!!
NOW!! Show me a reason,
Tell me the tail,
And ill wonder why,
Your not HERE!!
LOVE IS COMPLICATING
This i know,
So before you say NO,
I just want you to know
Love is just here to stay!
Shadows of the Past..
Days and weeks had passed. It has been three months since we’ve parted our ways. I remember the last night we’d shared. The warmth of his body caressing mine…his tight hug soothing mine from a cold dark night…his kiss reassuring me of his love…his looks guaranteed me that he will be just near me...every touch seemed endless, enter through every senses in my vein…room just filled with laughters…sweet moments…some talks…then tears…tears because time has come…to end everything over sweet cuddle…over sweet touch…over unspoken love…over time shared…over every fight…over every moody moments…over every difficulties…over right love we believe, at the wrong time. All just came to an end without trying to have a second chance. All just fade to memory.
Since then every day turned into night. Every night seemed the coldest… and the darkest. Every joy turned into distress. Every dream seemed unplanned and unreachable. Every road narrowed and crooked. Every place passed by seemed a shadow of the past. Everything vanished. All seemed to turn into nothing.
Now, I am alone. Alone in my wildest dreams yet a part of him still lingers in my mind and in my heart.
Sometimes in life we don’t know what will occur next. There are things we did not expect to happen but it just happened beyond our control and far from our mind could imagine. We ought to be good yet occurrences made us as what we are now…the beasts that lie within our soul far from the perception of other lives. The truth and reality only known within us... the handler and planner of each life. The only responsible for all, good or worse within us is only WE… ourselves!
Days and weeks had passed. It has been three months since we’ve parted our ways. I remember the last night we’d shared. The warmth of his body caressing mine…his tight hug soothing mine from a cold dark night…his kiss reassuring me of his love…his looks guaranteed me that he will be just near me...every touch seemed endless, enter through every senses in my vein…room just filled with laughters…sweet moments…some talks…then tears…tears because time has come…to end everything over sweet cuddle…over sweet touch…over unspoken love…over time shared…over every fight…over every moody moments…over every difficulties…over right love we believe, at the wrong time. All just came to an end without trying to have a second chance. All just fade to memory.
Since then every day turned into night. Every night seemed the coldest… and the darkest. Every joy turned into distress. Every dream seemed unplanned and unreachable. Every road narrowed and crooked. Every place passed by seemed a shadow of the past. Everything vanished. All seemed to turn into nothing.
Now, I am alone. Alone in my wildest dreams yet a part of him still lingers in my mind and in my heart.
Sometimes in life we don’t know what will occur next. There are things we did not expect to happen but it just happened beyond our control and far from our mind could imagine. We ought to be good yet occurrences made us as what we are now…the beasts that lie within our soul far from the perception of other lives. The truth and reality only known within us... the handler and planner of each life. The only responsible for all, good or worse within us is only WE… ourselves!
Only reminfs me of u..
I see you, beside me
It's only a dream
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memory
How could I ever let you go
Is it too late to let it know
I tried to run from your side
But each place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out all the lights
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
I needed my freedom
This what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart lie while you cry
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see
everything we've been through before
now it means so much more to you
Only you...
so come back to me
I'm down on my knees
boy can't you see??...
how could i ever let you go..
isn't too late to let you know
it only reminds me of you..
Neve too far away..
You're with me
Til the bitter end
What we had transcends
This experience
Too painful to
Talk about
So I'll hold it in
Til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again
A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me
When I remember
Glittering lights
Incandescent eyes
Still preserved
In my mind
In the memories I'll find solace
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
And I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me
And I'll remember
A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace
Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
And though we can never be
I'll think of you and me
Always remember
Still the one..
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "should u worthy of my love" or "i gave up" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Do i realIy need to keep u within? I hate it but ur still the one after all..
